The triptych Painless (Hurts.Anymore.Not) is a painterly study of the inevitable collision between a person and an Other, whether it ends in destruction or in transformation. Here I return to the traumatic experience of motherhood, holding onto guilt, responsibility, anxiety, and the miraculous all at once. The stitching points to the surgical interventions that shaped both my life and my child’s. Piercing the canvas with a needle and pulling the thread through matters for its ritual, suggestive quality.
At the triptych’s center is a broken ultrasound image of an embryo which is my metaphor for any individual person. Across two other works I lay out two opposing narratives for this person: alienation on one side and compassion and connection that transcends every conflict on the other.